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Jul. 26th, 2009

Totally pointless..

I am so hungover.
I know most people hate it, but i love it. It reminds me of what a good time i had last night.
Some guy stopped me and called me lovely, he didnt even know me but it was so nice of him.
And i bought a new dress yesterday, I had been looking at it for ages then saw it in the sale in my size and it was the only one left. Im so glad i bought it though its soo pretty and i felt great in it.
Wow 5 lines and i havent moaned once yet......
I really dont know what this update is actually about because i dont really have anything interesting to put lol.
BB is still awesome erm I still havent found another job :( Its so hard at the moment but im sure something will come up soon.
I am addicted to this song again..
I was singing it in the shower the other day and its been on repeat ever since.

I guess thats all ive got for now, i realise i just wasted a minute and a half of your life and i apologise :P
xoxo

Jun. 16th, 2009

Big brother............

Is absolutely AMAZING this year.
Im normally a hater of bb but this year i am addicted.
rodrigo makes me lol so much. He is amazing.
And kris is HOT!
i love it.
I am slightly ashamed though lol.
I ususally slag it off soooooo much
:)

May. 18th, 2009

Insomnia. its amazing.

"Death is peaceful, easy. Life is harder"

I hate moaning, i hate how this journal is probably going to be me moaning constantly about how crap life is.
I just finished watching the oc boxset.
Its taken me about 3 weeks but ive done it, spending all day every day in my bedroon doing coursework...
I had to watch something :P
It made me realise that no matter how hurt i was before all i really want is my sandy cohen, my edward cullen, my romeo, my prince charming...
you get the idea.
I hate being lonley it almost seems like life is pointless. without someone to share it with what is the point of having a life?
I was talking about the guy i like on saturday night and i just realised there is no point in chasing him whatsoever.
Its not him and its not me, Its her. she isnt even a girlfriend or an ex girlfriend, she is just a mate.
But the sad thing is the one thing thats stopping me and him being an us is her.
It makes me angry that she has no say in it at all, its nothing to do with her and she is the reason i cant see him :(
Im determined not to mope around "waiting" for him anyway im going to go out as normal and talk to guys as normal.
Its not like im ugly and cant get anyone else, i know this.
It sounds really big headed but there was a cute guy in the pub i was in on sat night and i went and sat on my own to see if he would notice i was on my own and come over to chat, (that sounds so lame but at the time it seemed a good idea haha) but before he had chance to come over someone else did. Then when they stood up to go someone else came and sat down.
Honestly i wasnt left alone for 2 minutes.
Confidence boost it was but it was also annoying as hell!
Im hoping the camden boy is out when i go to london next week.
Im stoked to go back to london, it feels like home.
I miss it sooooo much when im not there and the fact that im going down to see gigs, friends and pubs makes it even more awesome!
Just thinking about going makes me feel happier.
I get stick from some of my friends for writing a blog or journal or whatever I but i think its really theraputic.
even if this is my secret one that no one knows about.
I feel safe here, the only people that read it have absoultely no idea who i am and cant judge me.
I dont think i could ever be 100% honest if my friends were on here.
I love it
I wish i could sleep because i have soooo much coursework to do tomorrow.
I know i wont be able to but i suppose i better try...
xo

May. 6th, 2009

Too much to think about...

And this work load is crazy, Ive been home since 4 and doing this work since half past, its half past 12 nearly and im still not finished  :(
so i dont suppose i have much time to sit here playing on lj.........
coursework deadlines suck.
work work work
night night xx

May. 2nd, 2009

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This is all getting on top of me.
I wish you would leave me alone.
Im not a doll that you can have fun with and throw around.
Im a fucking person.
And believe it or not i have feelings.
Sophie you are a cunt.




Im so frustrated today....
I feel like the world has something against me, I like this new journal though i know no one that knows me has it and it makes me feel happy knowing no more shit will be spread.
New friends would be cool though so if anyone reads this and wants to say hi then please do :P
Not that anyone will actually read this lol
Oh well, spose i better do some more work :(
last weeks of college suck....
xx

Apr. 30th, 2009

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Urgh
New journal, i hate starting these its like a new phone without a simcard.
You feel lost, but seems as i was fed up of my "friends" reading my other journal and taking everything the wrong way i decided to make this anon one and find new lj friends...yay.
im pretty crap though so will only add people who are in the same communities as me...
thats because they are in the same communities and obviously are cool...
like me :P
or not.
ramble ramble
xx